i'm so sorry Elliot! Losing your dad is a hard thing at any age. What i know for sure is that he loved you more than anything. You will feel his absence, but if you take time by yourself to just sit and reflect and remember his warmth of personality and his amazing touch, you will feel as if he has never left you, he lives through your memories of him. As a bodyworker myself, i knew your dad as a great therapist who had his share of tough times. i know he was so proud of you. You've got a friend in me if you ever want to sit and talk or hang out with my family you're welcome. Bless all your days and especially the nights. with much respect, jon sullivan